Two Dreams
Sometimes when I sit and zone out from the immeasurable amount of work I have…I think of my future. One is where I have a wife and kids…names I already have in my head. Just playing out in the yard while I read about sports on the porch. Sadly I look forward more to being a father than a husband
That is for another day to discuss.
As I sit there happy in the sense of things I glance to the side to see another me. This other me is successful. Hopefully in something isnt a 9-5 but something I love doing to the point it is a 9 to 9 and I truly love doing it. Maybe modeling. I hope for acting. The realization is to obtain the large amount of success in those areas, I have to give up the other dream. Two sons and the house. The wife and the cars. The comforts of a home. Instead being a nomad to traverse the city to obtain this thing called success. It isn’t impossible to do it with a family…but the vocation I desire would be difficult to get with them.
I am at a crossroads right now. I can go all in with the success and kill any emotions I could manifest for a woman…or let any chance of that success go and settle down. Make a family.
Or I could do both….but…in the end it would be troublesome
